Today I am sick as a dog! (not sure where that phrase even comes from) I don't have much energy to blog a real post, so I'm going to vent my frustrations on here today about life not being fair and then try to tie it into being frugal or fabulous somehow... not fun though, because when you are sick... it is never fun!
I'm not contagious, I don't have a virus or a "bug"... it is simply my body's way of screaming at em to stop and slow down. You see it's mad at me right now for pushing myself too hard, 24/7. Doing everything all the time for everyone even when I should slow down. Problem is, I can't stop and rest either, I have kids to take care of... three of them. And when you have even one child you know that when they need you, they need you! You can't just ignore them till they go away, though sometimes I bet we all wish they would :)
Even If I sat there and let the house fall apart, and just worried about myself and my children, and our basic needs; there is no way I'd actually get any real rest. Tummies need fed, diapers need changed, tempers need time outs, and babies need play time. Add that all together and you have very little (if any) down time. Not to mention the fact that when I'm under the weather, I get absolutely exhausted! When I get sick, if I sit down for even 5 minutes to just "relax" I fall asleep and I am out for at least half an hour. Yes my body needs the rest, so I know why it happens, the problem is, that when your kids are all under the age 5 (3 years, 2 years and 8 months old to be exact) That half hour nap can be a very dangerous thing.
So, I'm home alone with the kid's, I feel absolutely ill and beyond tired, but I have to keep doing little chores and other things around the house just so I can stay awake and make sure the kids don't get hurt... all of which just makes me even more tired and sick. A vicious cycle if ever I saw one. Add on top of all that the emotional angst I get right about now... How life is SO NOT FAIR!
My husband gets sick, he calls in sick at work. He takes a day or two off to get better. While he is home, I cook, clean, take care of the kids (just like I do when he is at work) plus take care of him. Making sure he has everything he needs to get better fast so he doesn't have to miss any more work than necessary. I wait on him hand and foot, let him sleep as much as he needs and take on the extra stress of trying as hard as I can to keep the kids quiet as they play so daddy won't wake up.
Then I get sick, Daddy still goes to work, and I still get to do all the daily routine stuff. No break for mommy to get her feeling better. No time off, no rest for the weary.
Now, I know every single mother has had this happen to them at some point, and I may just be kicking a dead horse.... but again I say... So not fair!
The saddest part is, there is not much to be done. We do what we have to do and push through as best we can.
Here is the part where I try to tie this all in to being frugal and fabulous... I'm not doing very well, but I am going to refer back to a post I did before.... It's OK to be Lazy, Just Plan For It. If you can try to be prepared for days like these, that frozen TV dinner can be a life saver when you are not quite at 100%. That package of Huggies can save you some heartache when you are sick instead of using the cloth diapers that day. Read the full article here.
So that is my venting rant... tears steaming down my face as I type because it is just one of those days. (hopefully there aren't too many typos in this post, that I can't see due to impaired tear vision.)
In conclusion:
To all those Mother's who are stay at home parents (and Father's who are too), to anyone that has ever had to push through the worst day of their lives just to get to the next worst day, to those of us that keep putting our families needs first in spite our own needs that just can't be met at the moment...
You are amazing!
Don't' forget that! I love you and God loves you and you are NOT alone! Hang in there, it may not even get better or easier, but you are (in my book) the true definition of a super hero! You keep chugging through each day, sometimes second to second, but you are doing it! And that is the part that counts!
My prayers go out to all of those who are not well right now, physically, emotionally or spiritually. May your needs be met, and even some of your wants. May the time come when you can have that needed break, and may you have the strength to push through until then.
God bless you all.
Keep up the faith, in God and in yourself!
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